I hope. (and so should you)

I think of a lot of things when I think of hope. I think of rainbows, sunsets, babies, and chocolate chip cookies. I am full of hope even after all of that I've seen, all that I've been through. I hope because I know that this can’t be it. I will not let some bad times take away my ability to have good ones. I have some dark days, I have bad moments, but hope shows me the silver lining. I feel robbed sometimes but I know that I've got to keep going and to honor my son by seeing the good in things. Though I see no good in losing him, I believe it's making me a better person. I'm pausing to enjoy the little things, I'm learning to forgive people I should have a long time ago and I'm being easier on everyone-even myself.

Rainbow Maui, from nationalgeographic.com

I start a new job Monday and it terrifies me. I wanted to be a stay at home mother and here I am, childless moving forward in a life without my son. I’m worried that I may not be as ready as I think I am to be in a working environment after all this time away. As scared as it makes me I feel like this is a good thing for me. I hope that the extra money helps us further our efforts at getting our life together and I hope that having something to keep me busy will help my healing process. There aren't guarantees but I really believe that this will bring good things into our lives. That’s hope. I look around sometimes and see the love in the world, the beauty…I have so many things to hope for and so do each one of you.

Now it’s time to get mushy. I see so much negativity around and it’s time for a pep talk! This is a message to everyone:  do your best to hope, dream, and love to the fullest. If you've been putting off something you know you should do, do it now. Go for what you want, what you need out of life. Our time on Earth is precious and no matter what you've been through or what you've done, you deserve to be happy.  I don’t know where I would be without the support of each and every one of you so if you ever doubt that you mean something think about that.

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